I've been working on a new idea, a kind of framework for how to think about life as someone who is largely confined to being home due to constraints on my mental and physical health, and this is it:
It has become a way to boost my spirits and reframe things in a way that makes me feel better about myself. I find it inherently humorous but also infused with multiple layers of meaning. I've always been the quiet one, with a love of black clothes and black cats. I've learned to rely on research and inner resources in dealing with my chronic ailments, and it's fun to think of herbal treatments as potions. I have work to do in reclaiming my intuition and reconnecting with nature. I need to explore the potential in myself as healer, artist, and crone.
It is becoming less possible for me to function in the outside world due to chronic pain, but the truth is there's nowhere I'd rather be than home with my books, potions and cat. When viewed as a lifestyle choice, I feel more empowered, and released to embrace my creativity. I am having a hard time shaking off the stress from so many years of relying on survival jobs that required me to be someone I'm not, but it's time to rediscover my true essence, and I aim to enjoy doing so.
It is becoming less possible for me to function in the outside world due to chronic pain, but the truth is there's nowhere I'd rather be than home with my books, potions and cat. When viewed as a lifestyle choice, I feel more empowered, and released to embrace my creativity. I am having a hard time shaking off the stress from so many years of relying on survival jobs that required me to be someone I'm not, but it's time to rediscover my true essence, and I aim to enjoy doing so.
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